thoughts before class

i found an activity book
i purchased it a while back
mazes
for adults

i laugh at that
cuz i’m an adult
yet i can’t even complete the first maze

noticed the pencil erase stains
from the last time i tried

this needs to be a maze book for kids
sharp brains
observant
they trust their intuition
until someone comes along
tells them they ain’t fast enough
they’re doing it wrong
watch me
follow me

so a kid does

this is how living as a human is
a maze
life
a complicated maze

many times 
it’s just continuous
is death the open side of it
if we get to the end of the maze
does that mean we’re done
don’t know

i’m still in my maze
i erased the lines
kept hitting walls
just when i thought i found the right path
no turns, no obstruction
then comes the turn
the circle
the part of the maze
where you have multiple choices

it’s always at the turns
that i get stuck

i put the book away
i couldn’t find a pencil
not yet brave enough to use a pen
the commitment
it can’t be erased

maybe that’s the point
life isn’t about finishing the maze
it’s about learning which turns
i’m willing to take
even if i can’t erase them