1.3.26

i feel nothing for 2026
and somehow… that feels like everything

i’m entering the year with no expectations
no declarations
no vision-board promises taped to cardboard

i haven’t said
this year will be my year
i haven’t said
this year is when it all changes

nope
none of that

what i noticed instead

i am present

not rushing ahead
not bargaining with the future
just here
breathing in the moment 

i feel everything around me
and my highly sensitive body
it’s never felt this much collective energy at once

ever

interactions in the world 
used to be the place 
i wanted to be
out there
moving
surrounded by people

lately… not so much

and i think i know why

we’re all experiencing emotions we don’t have language for yet
because chaos rewrites the nervous system
because this isn’t just a hard season
it’s a global shift

the way the body processes daily life is changing
starting with the babies born today

they arrive already immersed
in intensity
in frequency
in everything we’re still trying to name

this will be their normal
the way they grow
the way they function
the way they feel the world without questioning it

we are living at the beginning of a new history book
the part where what once was
starts to crumble

and the ones who remember it
we’re the ones who rebuild

not the same
never the same
but differently

because once the human mind 
sees all that we have
there is no unseeing it